Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Stop trying.

At least you tried, at least you tried and tried. Tried the same thing over and over again because you're so afraid to look inside. Stop asking me what's wrong and saying that you don't understand just because this aftermath isn't going how you had planned. You know exactly what you did and exactly what you said, exactly what you meant but you choose to play the fool instead. Maybe it's to get a reaction from me. Well here's another indirect set of lyrics for you and others to see. I could use your real name but I prefer all the others they use. You left me. Now leave me. I just want to forget you.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Thinking

Everyday I wake up looking for life's lessons and everynight I go to sleep with more questions. Embrace your anger, embrace your fears, because those are emotions that never truely disappear. I can never return to so called "normality", because happiness is just a temporary distraction from reality.

Disconnected.

Who needs enemies when I feel I can turn on my friends at any given moment? How can I cut people out of my life without any remorse or need to repent? Where do I get off, thinking that friendships are being handed out left and right, when it's oh so scarce and there looks to be no end to this blight? This set of skin and bone just might be meant to speak intone. This set of skin and bone just might be meant to be alone. I'm a hypocrites hypocrite, I can hide behind these songs. Tell people when they're close to the truth that they're wrong. But I know that it's just a matter of time before everyone I've let in sees I'm a failure by design. This set of skin and bone just might be meant to speak intone. This set of skin and bone just might be meant to be alone. I'm thankful for all the joy I've forgotten that I had. Why hold onto a good memory until it turns bad?